Happy Thanksgiving!

This should be Monday's first Thanksgiving.

I should have another baby on the way.

I am thankful I got to have you both for the short time that I did.

The holidays are hard.

I miss you.

Happy Thanksgiving in Heaven.

Happy Birthday

When I was little I didn't know my Dad.

My parents re-married and each went on to have more children.

My Dad had a Son, my brother, that I never met.

He had cancer and passed when he was almost 3.

I have spent the last 15 years wondering what he was like.

He would have been 18 today.

I can't help but wonder what he would have been like.

Today at work the girls came and asked me to help sing happy birthday to this guy.

His Mom thought it would be neat since he was turning 18 today

Me, not being in the birthday mood, hesitantly asked what his name was since "happy birthday dear whatever your name is" doesn't have the same effect.

He had the same name as my brother.

Ironic?

Yes

Who else would that happen to?

Needless to say I did not sing with the girls.

I did however make a personal chocolate cake like thing and have the guys write happy birthday on it for him.

We even found some candles.

I know that without ever meeting my little ones I miss them more than I can take some days. I cannot even begin to comprehend meeting your baby only to have to give it back.

Happy Birthday.

Thank you for keeping my little ones company until we get to meet.