18 Mondays.

Yesterday was father's day.

Neme Talked about you some.

Since we lost you we both see things a little differently.

I feel so bad today.

I forgot it was Monday.

I forgot to write you.

I forgot to cry.

I think I am getting better.

I still miss you.

I was watching 19 Kids and counting and Anna said that she had a miscarriage and that what got her through it was being thankful.

I don't think I will ever be thankful that I lost you little one.

Though he will never hear it spoken, Happy Father's Day Neme.

This week you would have been the size of a hot house cucumber.

You would have started to hear noises and recognize my voice.

:(

My Life in 30 Days

Day 13:

A Picuture of your favorite band/ artist when you were

a teenager

He's so pretty :)

When I was a teenager I was in LOVE with Joe Nichols :)

RaWr

My boyfriend at the time took me to the Dixie Classic fair to see him and caught me TWO if his guitar picks he threw into the

crowd.

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Day 12 - Whatever tickles your fancy.



This video always makes me laugh.

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Day 10: A recent photo of you

This is me.

I am wearing glasses in this pic .

I hate pictures of me but I will post this one because it is the most recent of me.

I normally do not wear my glasses but this must of been a day I was driving or something.

That is all :)

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Day 9 : A photo of you taken over 10 years ago

A photo of you taken over ten years ago. I stole this one from mama:) I was maybe 3 here. My brother Kota and I are sitting on Mama's lap and the little red headed girl was our friend Lindsay. I think this was before her birthday party or something.

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Day 09 — A photo you took

I took this on a trip on the Blue Ridge Parkway.

This is Mabry Mill.

No.

This word "No" Looks easy enough to say.

But I have problems using it.

"Renni I know you are running late but could you bring this in with you?"

"Would you like to buy some Almond Cookies?" "I'm allergic to almonds, I'll only take one box"

"Renni I know you're at work but could you drive an hour away and get me as soon as you get off?" Sure.

Yesterday took the cake though. Someone actually asked me for me urine. Now that I think back on it I really have got to start saying no more. Who asks someone one to borrow pee? Sugar maybe. But pee?

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Day 08 — A photo that makes you sad.

This isn't my little one. This one belonged to someone else.

This is what he looked like though.

I miss you.

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Day 7 a picture that makes you smile:

This day was so much fun! Ross, Tallen and Tru played so much and we went down the slide and played on the swings. When you get older you forget how simple things are. The girls spent most of the day in piles of dirt building houses for ants.

Today

I thought of you bunch today. I haven't cried as much as I usually do but that doesn't mean I don't miss you. This week you would of been the size of a loaf of bread. You would have been wiggling your fingers and toes. I miss you. I miss the way you made me feel.