Ahh too busy to blog!

A lot of newness and old. I guess I'll just post ramblings from my head.

I got a promotion. So I am really tired . I miss having two days off in a week.

My birthday is Sunday and for the first time in my life I am not excited.

I cry at least 3 times a day for no reason.

I give up on a baby. Some people just aren't blessed. I am tired of getting excited only to be super depressed later. So I have stopped getting excited.

I have had alcohol 3 times this week in small quantities. I didn't get sick or turn yellow. Yay Liver!

My mom makes the best food in the world.

I just realized that most of the people that I thought were friends were just acquaintances. Even the best of friends out grow each other.

Why can my Ex and his ok with messing around with engaged men harlot have a baby and I cannot? I think I must of ran over some very important 'possums.

If it can go wrong it will.

I hate my car.

I don't really want to get married anymore but I am so far entangled I can't really say no.

I think my dad is coming home from Iraq. I say I think because I am not important enough to tell these things. I am only his oldest child and his only daughter. Asshole.

I had cookies for dinner last night.

Sometimes I have panic attacks at work and have to hide in the freezer because it takes my breath and makes me stop crying. Plus the freeziness keeps my face from turning red.

My friend would have been 21 5 days ago. I miss him. He always had the best insults.I regret not getting to tell him bye.

My ex keeps trying to get me to help him cheat on his wife. I am engaged and not a hooker so I declined.

My eyes are getting worse so I can barely read the screen.Thanks stupid glasses that broke.

My tags expire in 2 days and my new car won't crank.

One of my best friends hates me because I got the job he was suppose to get.

I just realized that I have nothing really to show for my life.

I wish mom would make me some Stroope waffles.

I read the divorces first in the Sunday paper because it's the best part.

Is it wrong to want to go away for a few days...alone?

I complained about the music in the kitchen today only to realize I liked the song they were blarring.

I stole a rooster that was in the middle of the road and gave him to my mom.

Ahh too much nothing lol

Peace and Captain Crunch!

Renni

Top Ten Thursday!

This weeks Top Ten 

Thing that make me happy!

1. Bright colors. 

I love teals and pinks and greens. They make my heart smile.

2. When my house is clean.

 Disorganization leads to depression and stubbed toes. Wolf cleaned the house so now it smells like pine sol and not old gym socks!

3. Candles.

I love candles that smell fruity or like cinnamon rolls. They are very calming.

4. Babies!

Last week there was a lady wit ha little boy that was maybe about 4 months old. He was screaming and she was trying to pay at the shoe store. I asked her if I could hold him cause im squishy and babies dig it. Within minutes he was fine. That made me happy.

5. Girls night out.

Once a week I go out with my Mom and my aunt and we eat Mexican food and gossip. It's nice to get out.

6. Books

I am one of the geekiest people on Earth. I love to read. I love the smell of a new book. 

7. Duct Tape.

There is no better feeling than sitting for an hour and taking pieces of tape and turning them into things that people want to buy.

8. Tallen and Ross

They are two of the cutest kids on this planet. They are very smart and always say what they are thinking. If I want to know if something is too tight all I have to do is be in a room with Tallen for 3 minutes and he will be sure to tell me.

9. My MP3 Player.

 I have had it a few years but it is loaded with my favorite songs and when I need to escape for a minute it is the best vacation.

10. Chocolate.

 There is no bad day that chocolate can not fix. I love it.

Tribute Tuesday!

This week's tribute is to my friend Janet.

She is hilarious.

We used to go to the gym and work out then go to the waffle house afterwards :D

She always has great advice and a joke when I am sad.

She harasses me to make wedding plans because she knows I am going to wait until the last minute.

She also has Ovarian Cancer.

She's a fighter and she is going to be fine.

She could kick my ass so I know she can kick Cancer's.

I love ya Jan-ay

Renni!

Maybe Monday

Life is full of maybe and might.

Maybe I am too nice.

Maybe I am a bad driver

Maybe I do have little bit of road rage but seriously, if you are driving 30 in a 55 while on the wrong side of the road of course I am going to honk and call you and idiot.

Maybe I shouldn't have took the management position. I miss being nothing and getting to go home while it's still the day I went in on.

Maybe I am going to sign up for college classes.

Maybe I'm scared to get married.

there's no maybe there actually. I am scared.

Maybe I'll go tan this week.

Maybe I am secretly glad that people are always asking me to do stuff.

Maybe I just want a nap. 

Maybe I'll cut my hair and get one of those weird choppy messy cuts. I like those.

Maybe I really missed the other shift leader this week. He laughs at my jokes :D

Maybe I am angry that the trash my ex was messing around with is now pregnant. 

Maybe.

Renni