My Life in 30 Days

Day 18 :Something you are afraid of:

I can not swim.

On multiple occasions different people have tried to teach me.

This usually ends badly.

They try the whole throw me in thing,

I panic,

and about drown us both.

The thought of drowning is terrifying to me.

If I can not touch the bottom I panic.

I am perfectly happy getting my toes wet and staying in the shallow water.

Is what I posted on FB as my reply to this topic today.

Realistically, this is a fear of mine.

It's PG enough to post there.

People will laugh and go on.

My biggest fear is that it will happen again.

That I will lose another one.

That we will that never have a baby of our own.

I could not handle another loss of that magnitude.

I won't drink now.

Just in case.

Because I cannot have that on my shoulders.